Pregnancy Mind Games

When you plan on starting a family and wanting to get pregnant, there’s a different kind of rush that you feel when you see the word “pregnant” appear on a tiny little stick.  Let the mind games begin!

For both of my pregnancies, I was in denial that being pregnant was a result of my body acting differently.  When I took a few at-home pregnancy tests and waited for the results, the minutes of waiting were the longest ever.  The anticipation was eating me inside.  And once the reveal came out to be positive, I felt my head shift into a gear that I’ve never felt before.

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First Response Test taken October 1, 2015

During the first couple of days after I found out I was pregnant with baby #2, I was convinced my mind was playing tricks on me.  My body started aching in places where it never ached before, I suddenly needed to rest and nap every day after work and my appetite changed where all I could drink was carbonated water.  I immediately thought my internals were making waves and moving around to make space for my little baby.  It felt surreal, yet new for me that I was going through another pregnancy because I don’t remember feeling the same way during my first pregnancy.  So besides taking a pregnancy stick, what triggered the idea of being pregnant?  The answer is – wait for it – constipation.  Yup, I was constipated for an entire week and my husband said “go buy medicine or take a pregnancy test”.  Lo and behold, he was right…

After getting the official news from the doctor and finding out how far along I was, my body started playing more tricks to make me feel uncomfortable towards the end of my first trimester.  Constipation, more changes to my appetite, tiredness, sex urges, diarrhea, vomiting, sensitivity in the milk making region- you name it.  I went through a not so pretty cycle of figuring out what my body was doing.  It felt like my body knew what to do but my brain couldn’t follow along.  My first trimester has past (thank goodness) and I’m embracing every change my body is doing during my second trimester.  I rub my growing belly every minute of the day, I’m grateful for my regulatory bowl movements and I love my growing boobies (my husband can attest  to this).  So for now, I’m in a better place with all these pregnancy symptoms.  I’ll still get the occasional hiccup of a pregnancy side effect, but I’m hoping for a smooth sailing until I start having to take hydroxyprogesterone shots (more on that when I go through my first treatment).

Spread the News

It seems nowadays that revealing your pregnancy is equally as exciting news as to when you become engaged, married or even first time homeowners.  But is it really exciting news for someone who can’t relate with the cycle of parenthood?  Do friends who live an independent life really care for your next step in adulthood?

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Photo credit: Nicole Hunter Photography

Last week, my husband and I shared our exciting news with our entire social media “family” via Facebook.  Nothing is ever official unless it’s posted on Facebook- that’s my motto.  Of course, we told our parents and immediate family members first (we’re not that insensitive).  I spent all night trying to figure out what photo to post and if I wanted to put a clever caption.  Since the end of the summer, I know of 5 couples who have shared their growing family news.  Some have used clever announcement phrases like for those who are pet owners, they used the phrase “my owners are getting me a human”; or for those who are expecting child #2, they used the status phrase “promoted to big sister/brother”.

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Photo credit: Nicole Hunter Photography

I knew I wanted to share our pregnancy excitement via an updated family photo.  After an outdoor photo session with our photographer, Nicole, I had a natural feeling that everything went well and it was a successful afternoon.  A few weeks flew by and once Nicole sent me the link to view our photos, I was crying like a baby.  She captured everything I visioned and wanted.  These photos reminded me that my family has come a long way since my daughter was born.  Her premature birth was mind blowing and life changing as my husband and I were very young parents and freshly new into our relationship.  We didn’t know what we were doing besides following direct orders from the doctors, nurses and specialists.  But we had a great support system between our parents, family members and friends.  Everybody wanted (and still wants) the best for our little girl who has gone through obstacles to be where she is now.

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Photo credit: Nicole Hunter Photography

I’m grateful for the love, energy and support from my family and friends during my first round of parenthood.  And I know those same people will have the same willingness of love, energy and support for when baby #2 arrives.  This support was quite obvious to me after I clicked the “Post” button on Facebook and everyone in my social media universe “liked” and/or commented their best wishes.  At the end of the day, your family and friends want the best for you.  You may or may not be going through life experiences at the same time.  But that’s why it’s called life- you live it the way you want it to be.  For those who have been with my family of 3 since day 1, they’ve seen it all- the good, bad and ugly.  They may not have had to change diapers at 3 AM or make sure lunch is made for school, but they’ve seen my husband and I tackle parenthood like we own it.  I think it’s safe to say we’re ready for baby #2 thanks to our support system between ourselves and everyone outside of our family of 3.

Welcome

Welcome to my motherhood blog all you fellow moms, parents, bloggers, readers and world wide web viewers!

As a short introduction, my name is Elaine and the content of this blog is all about motherhood.  I’m happily married to my husband of 4 years and we have a beautiful daughter who is 7 years old.  My husband and I have such a whirlwind story of our daughter’s life from the day she was born.  Parenthood wasn’t easy for us, but we’re grateful to have such a healthy growing girl.  Now we’re adding another addition to our family due in May 2016.

My intentions for this blog is to share my motherhood experience with fellow moms and/or first time moms who may or may not have gone through the “ideal” pregnancy.  I’m considered a high-risk patient because of having a preterm delivery with my daughter at 28 weeks old.  You read blogs online about women who fly through their pregnancies or have traditional symptoms, but you don’t hear about those who struggle outside of the “normal” pregnancy cycle.  I plan on sharing personal “TMI” details because pregnancy isn’t pretty and honestly, it’s not meant to be.  Don’t think my blog will stop once baby #2 arrives because parenthood never stops.  Being a parent means you’re constantly learning something new about yourself, your partner and your child.

So sit back, enjoy and keep posted on my weekly updates ranging from doctor visits, pregnancy symptoms and cravings, clothing and personal care purchases and everything under the umbrella.